Until The Last Ink Drops - 1.- [August 15th, 2024] Hopeless Romantic

[Hello, it’s been a while, I still wonder if you remember me, maybe or maybe not… But well, whatever the case may be, it’s fine. I don’t really expect much either… 

I know you may be wondering: “Why is he leaving a voicemail out of nowhere? It’s been ages since we last talked.”Am I right? Well, to tell you the truth, the reason is selfish… I just want to make myself feel good and nothing else. Well, since you knew me before and since I haven’t changed, you probably know what I am talking about.

It’s funny isn’t it? How fast the date changes… I remember the day I met you when we were in line for our university entrance exams, both nervous about if we could get in and nervous about the new environment that will await us.

You told me you had family over there, yet I didn’t… I was scared honestly, scared of being alone… but when you told me you were applying for the same career as me… I looked forward to it. Back then I was too shy to ask for your contact information, so until we saw each other again for the second test where only the two of us showed up, I knew nothing of you.

Then we both passed… and we had our first day of university together, we talked a little and headed to class, we ate together and messaged each other frequently… Yet you quickly changed… It seems you were a social butterfly, so within days you already had many people around you, following you laughing loudly.

Sure, I also made friends… but it didn’t feel the same, it felt lonely. Maybe I was just selfish, but I wanted a friendship where we could both be goofy together… like the ones I previously had.

Yet now I see my error, I needed a replacement… and maybe I didn’t see you for who you were… So I hid this feeling and went on with my life.

Yet the more I tried to deny your existence,the more aware I became of you.

Whenever I saw you through the hallways, my eyes were immediately drawn until you disappeared. Whenever I tried to focus, you would come up in my thoughts. The cute little twirls you did while we talked, and the shiny eyes peering into mine during exciting talks…

It was all just… mesmerizing.

I know this sounds corny, but can you blame me? Maybe I’m what they call a “Hopeless Romantic” or maybe I’m just in love with the idea of being in love. But the truth still stands that… I miss your company.

One year since we first met… and look how I ended, funny isn’t it? I’ve been told by one of my best friends that I’m just as easy, yet she told me that I looked happy whenever I gazed at what I truly loved. Whether it be with a hobby of mine… or a person I’ve grown attached to.

Well, enough about me, how have you been? Anything interesting lately? University can be quite tough, especially on your sleep schedule, so stay hydrated! And if you ever feel any discomfort, please reach out to someone, okay? I can’t help but feel worried.

You know, last week something amazing happened to me! Well, I tag it as amazing, but to each their own, right? Well, my professor praised my work! You probably don’t understand since you don’t have a class with him, but he’s really strict, which is helpful… yet sometimes sad. Anyhow, he told me that I’ve gotten better since I first arrived. And it made me happy!

What about you? How are your designs going? I’ve seen some of your work and I’m completely in awe of them! I knew you had it in you! It’s always nice seeing the people I care about strive in their fields, it’s inspiring, you know?

Say, if you’re hearing this… what do you say about going for lunch some time? I don’t know much about your relationships, maybe your friendships keep you busy… or maybe you got a boyfriend, to which I apologize just in case… But I just want to talk to you again, revive that chemistry that made us such good friends in a short time… 

My friendships are decreasing, one of them got a girlfriend recently… and another is dropping out of the career in order to pursue higher education in an academy…

It’s a little disappointing, but that’s life, isn’t it? I’m used to it, honestly. My best friend will also be enrolling in our university soon enough, but she’ll be at the other end of the campus in medicine… so it’ll be close to impossible to see her even during breaks…

Hey, am I being a bother? You stopped replying to my messages, right? You stopped approaching me in the hallways, right? I’m probably just overthinking, but knowing that you still acknowledge my existence would bring me peace of mind…

Before you ask… even though I’ve yapped about all this and all that… I can’t really say this is love… I don’t know… my view of love has been twisted since I graduated high school… and my view on interpersonal relationships as a whole…

I don’t get it, can you tell me what I’m doing wrong? I put so much effort into keeping my relationships…yet no one reciprocates the same effort. Well, I guess there’s people who just are like that, hahaha.

Still… I hope you can write to me soon… a simple “How are you?” should do the trick. Oh damn, look at the time, it’s late. I should keep this short then… Well, I don’t know what your life is like now, but I hope that both of our roads could connect again, even if only once. It’ll make me happy.

So good night, and please take care of yourself, sleep tight!]

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